so.

once again my blog has become somewhere i have come to get away from my homework which desperately needs doing. oh lord of the rings how i pray that summary sheets are allowed for methods test tomorrow. please please please. garhhhhhh

bio prac still to do. and study for methods. probably no time to study for general but sif ill do good in that anyway. lol so yeah. ummm.. kinda feeling better than i did last night.. but still in a kind of dreamy sad state. its actually quite a nice day today.. sunny.. blue sky.. just a little windy but who am i to complain.

went outside before because i wanted to feel the sun. not because i need more tan. haha i think we all know ive got enough. anyway sun felt good. just sat outside in the backyard staring at a tree for ages. aages. like its blossoming and that set against a cloudless blue sky. wahh. i was in awe at the majesty of nature. then i saw a bee. rubbing its damn face in the flowers. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT BEE IS DOING? ITS HAVING IT OFF WITH THE FLOWER. thats right. you never thought of it like that did you?! the flower needs to spread its pollen or whatever to REPRODUCE. and WHO DOES THAT? the BEE. WITH ITS FACE AND LEGS. thats like having a person go up to a man, rubbing his magic wand until he cums, collecting the cum on the persons feet, then going to a woman and kicking her up the magical v to spread the cum and make a baby.

EWWWWWWWW NICK. thats gross man. thats sick and disgusting and.. strangely entertaining. hahaha jk hope yall didnt get offended by that. but then again if you know me youre probably used to all these weird things by now.

okay so still feeling crap. its like a freakin rollercoaster. one minute im okay the next ive gone down into this pit of misery. then im okay again.

gahh. staring at the sky is awesome. especially today. i understand what those lyrics mean now.

if i could fall
into the sky
do you think time
would pass me by?

ohhhhh mthrfck the first time i heard that i was like how can you fall into the damn sky woman? but right now omfg i can realllllly understand what shes saying. shit. i just got a shiver up my spine. gahhhhh. sigh. listening to jay chou songs last night almost broke me down. almost. i was on the verge of water works mania. but i stopped. now listening to them again lol. damn jay chou tear jerker mtherfcker bitch damn hell crap songs. i love you. BAHAH.

okay. have no idea what all this emotinal shit is about. but yeah... emotions. stupid pieces of crap. well just the sad ones. still feeling sad for no apparent reason. and depressed. and lonely.

i want to fall into the sky.